GOD is creating something new in me. This person completely ready to trust Him. Just to trust Him. Not to think about everything, but just to trust Him. I want Jesus completely, not just in my heart, but I want to live my life in complete trust that He knows what He's doing with it. It's one thing to say, "yeah, I trust You", and it's another whole other thing to live like it.
Thanks for the prayers. I woke up this morning feeling complete peace. He is wrapping His arms around me and telling me, "Daughter, I love you so much more than you ever thought. This assignment, this place I've whispered to you, move there and I'll be with you. I will never leave you nor forsake you. I love you too much. My love will hold you. Even in the times when it feels like no one is there, I am there with you. When it feels like no one could possible know what you're feeling, just know that I do. I will never ask of you something that I know you can't do. With me, you'll make it. It might not always be easy, but I'm going to be right there with you."
I think I know why I didn't go up to the altar at camp that year when I first knew I was called to missions. I was scared of giving everything over to Him. It would change me, and I knew that. I was scared of change. I wasn't ready to be used by Him and to say I trusted Him. Well now I am. I'm ready. So ready.
"How lovely is Your tabernacle,
O Lord of hosts!
My soul longs, yes, even faints
For the courts of the LORD;
My heart and my flesh cry out for the living God."
Psalm 84:1-2
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